Dear Troy...
You're a curious man, Troy. I've discovered how, um, "questionable" and contradictory your views are on several political matters, and I think your stance on bb sex is pretty appalling ("safe sex schmafe sex" I think you said in a published interview, though I know sometimes such interviews aren't accurate). Yet in your case I can't get you out of my head. Often opposites attract, though I don't know you'd be attracted to me. I'm consistently turned off when I discover a man seems to care little about the relationship between fucking and health, smokes, loves Ayn Rand, etc., but you are the exception. Was it because before I knew your politics I saw all aspects of your gorgeous body---one of the most amazing in existence and maybe of all time---fucking men gloriously, expertly, safely? Because I fantasized about being your lover the way I do with only a few gay porn stars? Because I fantasized about being your boyfriend, perhaps one of enough longevity that I'd be an uncle to your nieces and nephews, your longtime companion? That even when I learned more about your mindset, I admired you for finding words for it and chronicling your (mis)adventures, then self-publishing them? That I've pictured myself debating you and crushing your arguments, only to retire to the bedroom and experience you crushing me under the weight of your body? Maybe writing this to you will help me purge all these longings. I want the world to go back to making more sense despite the knowledge of the frequent futility of this wish going back at least as far as Plato's "Phaedrus." 3/19/15
Dear Anonymous:
The only thing contradictory about my politics is that I once believed in the good of Obama and Israel. I've never granted an interview in my career and what I have shared on bb sex is to say I don't get the mystical attraction or polarization of it. I've even lost work because I wanted to wear condoms. Ayn Rand? I like her books and exemplary concentration as a writer but I'm not a Randite and don't even bother with Ayn Rand social networks. However, the cigars and whisky stay.
Thank you, whoever you are. I really enjoyed reading your thoughtful commentary
Read more: http://troymoreno.blogspot.com/2015/03/show-of-colorful-bottoms-pt2.html#ixzz3V43TDnXs
Me again. I wanted to write sooner. Sorry I didn't.
ReplyDeleteI see you have at least five bb scenes out there, including ones with Armond Rizzo and Cory Koons, so I wonder why you say you've lost work for refusing to do bb, which implies that you've never done it. At least there is Truvada now, although it's apparently astronomically expensive, but with condoms added, two (or more!) serodiscordant partners could have amazing fucks, or so I think. Do you?
Have you ever been in love? What sort of relationship would you ever see yourself in? I know you oppose everything about gay marriage, including any legal codification approving it (which was one of the "questionable" political stances I was talking about before), but is there any point at which you'd think of having a few men (or one) you were really emotionally and mentally connected with while pursuing your porn and other careers as well as your other sexual adventures? Would you at least go for a "fellow traveler"? I could talk about how disappointed I am in Obama and Israel, too, but probably from a much more leftist perspective. (Have you read Max Blumenthal's book Goliath?) And you could tell me much more about where you've been and where you hope to go as you continue to satisfy your lust and wanderlust.
I never meant to give the impression that I disapprove of drinking at all or YOUR smoking habits. When it comes to smoking, that's what I meant when I said that finding out a guy is a smoker inveterately turns me off, even when I've already developed some sort of interest in him, even if he's a favorite actor or porn star---but then you came along. Hell, cigars and pipe tobacco are far better than cigarettes and almost always better than pot and incense!
I just read your post about the Kit Kat. You failed to mention how you were outfitted---not that it's any of my business---but what kinds of erotic outfits do you like to see potential partners or longer-term fuck buddies in? What other things do you find especially sexy? (I'm glad to see you like hair and don't seem to mind beards....!) And how does the Kit Kat compare with other sex clubs?
Are you working on another book or do you have plans for another? What are some of your favorite books and why? And what about authors?
I guess that's it for now. Be well.
Hi again, Troy,
ReplyDeleteI understand if you don't want to post my previous (long) comment because of some of its more controversial content. If that's the case, but you're up for continuing the conversation, maybe you could post something like "I'm up for continuing the conversation" and I could then send you an e-mail address. I know you want to keep your privacy, though, so if you'd rather I find a different way to write these posts (if I do continue to write them), please let me know and I'll do my best to follow your instructions. For instance, I could separate out more controversial topics and include them in a different post. I'm sure we can think of something.
Methinks one of us is confused: I did publish the comment in its entirety....
DeletePS: Thank you for the afterthought but you needn't worry about hurting my feelings. I truly don't invest a great deal in what people think of me and even less in persons who I don't know personally (or even recollect).
You know (of)me but I don't know anything about you.