A curious log concerning my goings-on in the curious, queer, and scandalous industry of illicit sex...and then, sometimes, what happens off camera too. Wicked.
You're a curious man, Troy. I've discovered how, um, "questionable" and contradictory your views are on several political matters, and I think your stance on bb sex is pretty appalling ("safe sex schmafe sex" I think you said in a published interview, though I know sometimes such interviews aren't accurate). Yet in your case I can't get you out of my head. Often opposites attract, though I don't know you'd be attracted to me. I'm consistently turned off when I discover a man seems to care little about the relationship between fucking and health, smokes, loves Ayn Rand, etc., but you are the exception. Was it because before I knew your politics I saw all aspects of your gorgeous body---one of the most amazing in existence and maybe of all time---fucking men gloriously, expertly, safely? Because I fantasized about being your lover the way I do with only a few gay porn stars? Because I fantasized about being your boyfriend, perhaps one of enough longevity that I'd be an uncle to your nieces and nephews, your longtime companion? That even when I learned more about your mindset, I admired you for finding words for it and chronicling your (mis)adventures, then self-publishing them? That I've pictured myself debating you and crushing your arguments, only to retire to the bedroom and experience you crushing me under the weight of your body?
Maybe writing this to you will help me purge all these longings. I want the world to go back to making more sense despite the knowledge of the frequent futility of this wish going back at least as far as Plato's "Phaedrus."
The only thing contradictory about my politics is that I once believed in the good of Obama and Israel. I've never granted an interview in my career and what I have shared on bb sex is to say I don't get the mystical attraction or polarization of it. I've even lost work because I wanted to wear condoms. Ayn Rand? I like her books and exemplary concentration but I'm not a Randite and don't bother with Ayn Rand social networks. However, the cigars and whisky stay.
Thank you, whoever you are. I really enjoyed reading your thoughtful commentary.
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Wow! Totally worth waiting for. The purple pair in particular. You never looked better Troy. (sf Client/fan)
ReplyDeleteThanks, babe! I especially like the purple pair as well. More pics are coming this weekend.
ReplyDeleteYou're a curious man, Troy. I've discovered how, um, "questionable" and contradictory your views are on several political matters, and I think your stance on bb sex is pretty appalling ("safe sex schmafe sex" I think you said in a published interview, though I know sometimes such interviews aren't accurate). Yet in your case I can't get you out of my head. Often opposites attract, though I don't know you'd be attracted to me. I'm consistently turned off when I discover a man seems to care little about the relationship between fucking and health, smokes, loves Ayn Rand, etc., but you are the exception. Was it because before I knew your politics I saw all aspects of your gorgeous body---one of the most amazing in existence and maybe of all time---fucking men gloriously, expertly, safely? Because I fantasized about being your lover the way I do with only a few gay porn stars? Because I fantasized about being your boyfriend, perhaps one of enough longevity that I'd be an uncle to your nieces and nephews, your longtime companion? That even when I learned more about your mindset, I admired you for finding words for it and chronicling your (mis)adventures, then self-publishing them? That I've pictured myself debating you and crushing your arguments, only to retire to the bedroom and experience you crushing me under the weight of your body?
ReplyDeleteMaybe writing this to you will help me purge all these longings. I want the world to go back to making more sense despite the knowledge of the frequent futility of this wish going back at least as far as Plato's "Phaedrus."
The only thing contradictory about my politics is that I once believed in the good of Obama and Israel. I've never granted an interview in my career and what I have shared on bb sex is to say I don't get the mystical attraction or polarization of it. I've even lost work because I wanted to wear condoms. Ayn Rand? I like her books and exemplary concentration but I'm not a Randite and don't bother with Ayn Rand social networks. However, the cigars and whisky stay.
ReplyDeleteThank you, whoever you are. I really enjoyed reading your thoughtful commentary.